圣诞将来..

如果梦是美好的, 真的不想醒来

Should i switch to use Twitter since nowadays I only blogged with short statements..

Near.. Far

So near yet so far... It is a sighing for life..

No worry, be happy~

平凡

很多时候,可能很想自己多一些独特性...

这一分钟只想自己只是平平凡凡就好...

笑容的背后所隐藏的伤怀,没有几个人能够看得出来

戴歪了的脸谱重新锁上,生活依旧...

Overwhelmed by frustrations... Every morning I woke up the sickness
still there, about get well yet like worsening, I hate this feeling!!

I felt stuck in my own loyalty.. shaken and feel that it is just a foolish mindset again..

Perhaps I am expecting too much again..

Bad Mood

Smiling has become a temporary solution to frustrations today

No matter how bad mood, keep on smiling.....

Don't know why, since last night, confidence has left me in my latest idea..

I afraid of this idea not working and i wasting the precious time resources that I have..

A Special Note

Whoa~~ Pastor Phil was preaching in the service last week..

Honestly, I am touched by the precious action of Pastor Phil that purposefully come to Singapore to preach in the service, encourage the whole church in this time of crisis whereby key leaders from the church are being "investigated" for their trustworthiness

I am touched for an action I saw as valuable, an explicit purposeful effort that try to render the all needed support to us in this season of time, but more than that, I was touched by physical presence of Pastor Phil during a period whereby our beloved Pastor Kong may not be convenient to be on the stage behind that pulpit..

Though you may not see this blog post, but I would just like to leave a post in this cyber space, and said "Thank you Pastor Phil for the things you done for City Harvest Church!"

And though you may not see this blog post, but I would also like to leave a post in this cyber space, and said "Pastor Kong, you are our beloved pastor, and forever be, and I personally trust you, and would support you Pastor, all the way! You Gambade!"

Recently have watched quite some drama series, in a watch-video mode...

Realized that, in a drama series, actors and actresses who are in it, shaping the drama roles in a way that the audiences, if having harmony in the role, will have good impression onto the person who acts on the role as well very easily...

If it is not publicly true, then I am the exceptional few who am in such a way...

I always think that I am those type that easily getting myself involved into the drama story, and realize that I have good impression over a few actors and actresses just recently through a few drama series, some of which I may not have known them before until in the series itself... Interesting phenomenon...

@=@=@

Perhaps going JB tomorrow with some friends tomorrow, quite in a contradicting feeling, on one hand I quite looking forward to it because of the interactions and fellowship but on the other hands felt tiring physically to go for this trip... After staying at indoors for so long, perhaps is time to have some movement activities........

A new challenge has just joined the queue...

When life is overwhelmed with challenges, what is the response of the majority?

I don't understand the purpose of these challenges or pull back factors in my life, is it that those exist really in order to prepare me for a great future and cultivate a highly successful life style? Or it exist because unfortunately I am the random few who really need to go through these? Is there really a green pasture after this tunnel? You promises yes!

I am squeezed, I felt tight from 4 sides.

I am confused, I felt undecisive at 100 junctions.

I need a thorough breakthrough in life, but it is really impossible without You because of all the pull back factors, and also I felt weak, I really really need Your strength, do You know it? Yes, i believe You know it!

Thank You!!

Half Volunteer

Today went to china town to be a half-volunteer together with some from the cell group..

We went to help clean up on those old people's home, because a lot of them are inconvenient to do the cleaning... But i said I only be half-volunteer because my main role there turned up to be a translator for my group to the house owner who only know speaking cantonese... I felt bit uneasy seeing myself not really doing the physical but only chat with the old people staying in the house while others are helping out in doing the real cleaning...

Today is quite a fruitful day, not only I am reinforced the truth that building up the synergy through working together towards the same goal is very effective (in fact I think is the only effective way as well), but more importantly, giving and seeing others happy from the giving is very happy to oneself...

I hope today becomes a turning point that I love my whole cell group more, and mingle around with them more, support them more, playing with them more, chatting with them more, moving with them more, joking with them more...... (In fact, my heart is very moved today)

Anyway, I also found out the main reason that why I sometimes seldom talk to people when being in a large group, staying silently while other times I could talk so much... ...

A Recognition

Last month, get a news that I am promoted to be senior engineer in my workplace... My boss fought the promotion for me among the engineers around and succeeded, with lots of sweat and tons of words to justify my promotion.

To me, this is a recognition from my manager on my contributions and work done, though I personally felt that I don't really deserve it..

In a way, it is something that worth celebrations, I guessed... but i felt this promotion a bit quiet, not that I intend to roar it out until everybody know it, only that I don't know whether I actually got the excitement in me for it, I initially intend to treat a few friends personally a meal, to share across my happiness, it turns out that, got nobody I especially eagerly wanted to share this news with...

Anyway, I felt it's weird whenever thinking that I am a senior engineer now in my workplace...

But anyway, not keeping this news, at least share it on my blog, to express my appreciation and gratitude to my God, and I deeply believe that, it is the work of His hands that I progress this far in my workplace, because I personally just am not having much great things to talk about in my work as compared to many others. Hallelujah

I also always being thankful to God that I am having a great manager like Meng who cares and fights for those that report to him, especially when hearing many others complain about the ignorance of their bosses. It is the partial reason why I still stick onto the job until this point of time.

Thank God, thank Meng, thank my now and ex-team members Lemuel, Joo Soon, Azmin, Gerardo and Nur.

昨晚独醉，今晚也会醉吗?

今晚又买醉...

买醉...

Today while on my way back from Taiwan, suddenly recall this oldies... what an oldies...

Title: 明明白白我的心

明明白白我的心渴望一份真感情
曾经为爱伤透了心为什么甜蜜的梦容易醒
你有一双温柔的眼晴你有善解人意的心灵
如果你愿意请让我靠近我想你会明白我的心
星光灿烂风儿轻最是寂寞女儿心
告别旧日恋情把那创伤抚平不再流泪到天明
我明明白白你的心渴望一份真感情
我曾经为爱伤透了心为什么甜蜜的梦容易醒

明明白白我的心渴望一份真感情
曾经为爱伤透了心为什么甜蜜的梦容易醒
你有一双温柔的眼晴你有善解人意的心灵
如果你愿意请让我靠近你的心事有我愿意听
星光灿烂风儿轻最是寂寞女儿心
告别旧日恋情把那创伤抚平不再流泪到天明
我明明白白你的心渴望一份真感情
我曾经为爱伤透了心为什么甜蜜的梦容易醒
明明白白我的心渴望一份真感情
曾经为爱伤透了心为什么甜蜜的梦容易醒
你有一双温柔的眼晴你有善解人意的心灵
如果你愿意请让我靠近你的心事有我愿意听
星光灿烂风儿轻最是寂寞女儿心
告别旧日恋情把那创伤抚平不再流泪到天明
明明白白我的心渴望一份真感情
曾经为爱伤透了心为什么甜蜜的梦容易醒

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Just have been back from Taiwan. Post again about the trip when free-r