很久没有回来我的部落格了，趁着今晚有着写下点滴的思绪和心情，记录近来的一些经历。
刚刚过了一个为期4天的活动班，在公司的日子比较充实，但也相对比较疲倦，不过我深信，这班上所学的对我将来想做的将会有很大的帮助。
听着周杰伦的“不能说的秘密”， 有着一种很想继续沉思的感觉。从小时候我就相当喜欢沉思的感觉，觉得沉思令人散发出一种气质，难以言喻的气质。有时想想这，有时想想那，总结一句，就是想不完。。。
每天看着报纸各种的新闻，感慨，无奈总是围绕着我；很多人的遭遇是不幸的，却也是无奈的，因为人能够做的毕竟是很有限的。我很想伸出自己的援手，不过我的能力真的很微薄，也缺乏了集结动员的能力和本钱。曾经想过背包到贫穷山区走一回，不过也只是想想而已。
近来，对人有些感慨，发现对人的要求越多，到头来也只是失望越大。在尽量压抑失望的情绪对自己造成的冲击，使我不至于将不满的情绪宣泄到其他无关的人身上去。。。
刚刚过了复活节，还不错的复活节。。。
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
Praise Song for This Season
Recently, I am greatly moved by this song of praise - Heaven is singing tonight. To me, it is the song of season. It is not first time I am greatly moved by song, but it is very seldom being a praise song...
Anyway, a praise session to God can become very powerful session, I witnessed before in a Christian meeting made up by hundreds of Christian, and the praise session that night is so powerful, Holy Spirit come like a wave and many of the congregations cannot stands in the presence of God and just fall down, on the place where they are standing. It is very different, firstly it comes like a wave, can see (actually i closed my eyes, so should be hearing) the congregations from one direction falling, and the "falling" happen from one direction of the hall towards the other direction like a wave, on the place where they are standing, no one lay hands, no pastor praying on specific individual...
Pastor of the night has explained to us that it is the worship team on the stage leading the congregation to praise God and have attracted God's Spirit to present in such a mighty way...
Remember that I learnt from a bible study session... praise is to build a throne for God... that's why we should praise God with all our strength, all our body, all our mind... The level of praise we present to God determine the 'greatness' of the throne seat that we are offering to the King, but He worths our praises...
Hallelujah~~~
Anyway, a praise session to God can become very powerful session, I witnessed before in a Christian meeting made up by hundreds of Christian, and the praise session that night is so powerful, Holy Spirit come like a wave and many of the congregations cannot stands in the presence of God and just fall down, on the place where they are standing. It is very different, firstly it comes like a wave, can see (actually i closed my eyes, so should be hearing) the congregations from one direction falling, and the "falling" happen from one direction of the hall towards the other direction like a wave, on the place where they are standing, no one lay hands, no pastor praying on specific individual...
Pastor of the night has explained to us that it is the worship team on the stage leading the congregation to praise God and have attracted God's Spirit to present in such a mighty way...
Remember that I learnt from a bible study session... praise is to build a throne for God... that's why we should praise God with all our strength, all our body, all our mind... The level of praise we present to God determine the 'greatness' of the throne seat that we are offering to the King, but He worths our praises...
Hallelujah~~~
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Trip??
Recently got a plan to go for a trip to HK with some of my friends. The initial planned date is somewhere in July. However, due to some changes to the schedule of my friend(s), he and his friend will bring it forward to May, and the trip appear to be a rush one, so i now call it off from my plan already.
Hm.. think really need a battery-charging-with-no-work-or-projects-or-business-idea-in-mind trip, life is dull, and intend to colouring it with out-of-town trip... but not malaysia... somewhere further... though not Thai, Vietnam, Philipines, Laos, Mainland China, Myanmar, Indonesia.... Haha.. I am quite picky when coming into trip destination selections..
Hm.. think really need a battery-charging-with-no-work-or-projects-or-business-idea-in-mind trip, life is dull, and intend to colouring it with out-of-town trip... but not malaysia... somewhere further... though not Thai, Vietnam, Philipines, Laos, Mainland China, Myanmar, Indonesia.... Haha.. I am quite picky when coming into trip destination selections..
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Unpeace
I've a lot of things that i intend to do, but i am progressing very slowly overally. Very uncalm tonight, felt very rushed in heart want to achieve something, but can't...
I find it more and more meaningless for me in my current job, losing my passion and vision for it, does it mean that it is time for me to change my job??????
Seriously not known what to do next... relax and enjoy myself to bring myself back into peaceful state of mind i think is the first step to do...
I find it more and more meaningless for me in my current job, losing my passion and vision for it, does it mean that it is time for me to change my job??????
Seriously not known what to do next... relax and enjoy myself to bring myself back into peaceful state of mind i think is the first step to do...
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Backpack
I am thinking, if life is a journey, then it must be a trip of anyone are trying to go from point A to point B. One can choose to go through jungle to have a jungle walk and going through the scenary of trees with animals, while another one chooses to climb over the mountain will see things like snow, birds, mist, and maybe a sunrise. Some others may just want a normal walk, following pathways that already built. Along the way, we may see other, by passing them or walk together until to a place where eash other are heading towards different direction...
It seems everyone will bring along something with him/her, just like a jungle walker, or a mountain climber will bring along a backpack with important stuff inside... But i am just thinking, if we really sit down and open up this backpack of ourselves, what will we see inside?
Some actually bring along a sad and torturing memory inside his/her backpack, some put in his/her own broken heart, some place in the burdens of life... When all these are filling up the backpack, no wonder along the way, so many are so tired and cannot continue on the journey, because the backpack s/he is carrying is so heavy, didn't realize that many of those are actually not the necessities of the journey... Why bring along a heavy flipper with you when you are climbing up a mountain and don't need a flipper?
I don't know... very often the flipper looks like a mountain stick to me... and thought that i will need it on my journey up the mountain, yes, to the person who is carrying it himself/herself, it is not known...
My shoulder is heavy, life is burden, I fall but no one pick me up, i screamed but no one hear me, I call but no one answer me, I was wounded but no one cares...
It seems everyone will bring along something with him/her, just like a jungle walker, or a mountain climber will bring along a backpack with important stuff inside... But i am just thinking, if we really sit down and open up this backpack of ourselves, what will we see inside?
Some actually bring along a sad and torturing memory inside his/her backpack, some put in his/her own broken heart, some place in the burdens of life... When all these are filling up the backpack, no wonder along the way, so many are so tired and cannot continue on the journey, because the backpack s/he is carrying is so heavy, didn't realize that many of those are actually not the necessities of the journey... Why bring along a heavy flipper with you when you are climbing up a mountain and don't need a flipper?
I don't know... very often the flipper looks like a mountain stick to me... and thought that i will need it on my journey up the mountain, yes, to the person who is carrying it himself/herself, it is not known...
My shoulder is heavy, life is burden, I fall but no one pick me up, i screamed but no one hear me, I call but no one answer me, I was wounded but no one cares...
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