人情牌，用多了，就没有效果了；想改用人月牌嘛，却又是犯法的（贿赂是犯法的）

有相聚，就会有别离。纵然有再多的不舍，别离还是会到来。如果说成熟的人是可以应付这种伤愁的，
那我承认自己是个不成熟的人。

我突发奇想，有多一步可以尝试，可是不知道这可不可以挽留成功，也在琢磨着是该还是不该，
奇迹快出现吧！

Was affected emotionally last 2 days...

On Wednesday basically i am not productive at all, just under shocking stage for the day after knowing that one of my colleagues is leaving..

He is like one of my left-right hand to-be..

Left-right hand as in he is one of the top performers in the team who doing projects together with us, and he indeed is a very very responsible guy and reliable team member who constantly, faithfully and responsibly follow the instructions given, regardless of his willingness of doing the task..

Why i said left-right hand to-be, because he is now not reporting to me, instead, to another of my counterpart, but he is going to be work under my umbrella after his current project at hands, which i have been anticipating for quite a while...

Unfortunately, resignation letter was typed and submitted, and he is leaving for new job next month before this shifting happen...

Though not professional to be under such state, my emotion is very mixed for the incident, given that his departure is more a result of sets of dissatisfaction besides a career path consideration rather than just the latter factor as major tipping point of such a move... I regretted that, i only feedback to my manager few weeks back for some of his dissatisfaction that i have aware off for quite a while, but never take another step to request to transfer him over under me, which i believe will resolve a few points of his dissatisfactions... I had the thought before, but due to worry being labelled as political, i didn't take this step rigorously... and now is too late, he already made up his mind to leave, without any compromise and is totally closed door...

After this incident, my manager has decided to move another project development team member to report to me directly, rather than previous arrangement of reporting to my counterpart but technically under my guidance... I think this move is triggered by the resignation incident...

It is too late to express appreciation to his previous effort, neither will this late appreciation touch him to ever consider to stay in the company... unless miracle happens...

Seems like my previous major plan which include him will need to be re-strategized... It is really really a very bad thing to lose the left right hand man...

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Tonight, a bit moody, intend to look for Julius for a meet up and chat / movie perhaps, end up also meet up with Gavin and their friend YiXing...

Have been met up with Yixing I think 2 times before, but only tonight got a closer talk and deeper conversation with YiXing.. Though find him being filled by too much "curiousity", but generally still clickable, can talk and interact fine...

People shape up impression on others along the way when interacting with one another, so am I... I am interested and want to understand more on this new friend i know if got chance to meet up again in the future... i think he has not shown the true side of him in front of me, but is normal since we don't know each other well yet, but i have this impression that he has a lot of life stories and has a lot of thoughts that are unique... have been excited to have a new friendship that i think i can explore a bit further...

Realized that, coming to Singapore for 9 years now, how my life has been moved on from 0 friend here in Singapore when i just moved here from Malaysia to now build up quite some friendships.. Though overall numbers are not many here in Singapore, but among them God has blessed me with some good friends, buddies, close friends or whatever it may call, in workplace, in church... whom i can trust, and enjoy the conversations with...

In church
Kel
Jerrick
Gavin (I cannot forget that Gavin is the first whom come forward and make friend with me at the time when i just rejoin the church service after leaving quite a long while, leave behind a very strong impression in my mind, off course is a good one)
Julius (very quiet.. sometimes is like: can you don't be so quiet? so hard to dig the chatty side of him to wake up. But can tell, he is a faithful friend, that's why i always like to ask him if free to meet up some times after work which i need to travel passed the area he stays)
PengHuat

In workplace
KarWei (whom is one of my best buddy now, being a new father soon, so happy for him)
Joo Soon (whom in work, i consider my left-right hand, but is leaving the workplace soon)
James (whom in work, i also consider as my left-right hand last time, but now no longer work under me because my manager has shifted this heavy responsibility away from me and ask me to be focus on project development)

In uni
Jordan (I actually trust Jordan alot not long after knowing him, trust in a way that i never hesitate to share any business ideas i have, never suspect that he will steal it and make it his own)


I realized also it is easy and difficult to be a friend whom I consider my good friend, which i will render my help, support, encouragement and concern beyond what i normally will do... easy because it is not hard to gain my trust, through a few incidents is sufficient for me to treat you as my good friend whom I will believe and commit, but also difficult because there is no hard rule on what from these few incidents to show me...

I think during young time, watched too many sword hero stories already... have now become so emphasizing loyalty of friendships, and i am someone who prefer to spend most of my time build deeper friendships rather than build wider friend network...

Coolness

Have not been blogging for 1 and half month, sometimes it is a dangerous thing not to keep the continuous flow of a momentum, because once it is lost, it can be hard to pick it up again...

Anyway, recently suddenly have this thought, it's regarding coolness~~

I noticed that people behaviour is somehow driven by the coolness behind the act, this is especially true for younger generations...

When people think dying red onto the hair is cool, dang dang, the hair color of the person turned red...

When people think having tattoo is cool, tattoo is all over the body...

When people think that wearing SKIN T-shirt is the coolest fashion in town, he/she will save up money and buy a SKIN t-shirt, and wear it and make sure everyone see it the next day...

I realized, I myself, non different from the rest, also driven by coolness...

I think that act cool in the outside even though it is hot in the heart, I do accordingly, causing me being silent at times because i think it is cool...

I think that dying hair seems cool, I did it from time to time...

I think that being hilarious is cool, I am learning to do so now...

But then...

Is it really cool? Then I realized it is actually not important that if the action is really cool in the very nature, it is the feeling of the person who did it matters.. If the person think that it is cool, he/she will just want to do it...

But I just puzzled... majority actually are merely followers of the "cool acts", who then actually being the first mover to bring up the "cool act" which later people think is cool and follow?? I have no answer... Why can't we be that first mover of the cool act? Instead of follow the pattern of action that other people influence us to think that is cool, why we cannot just influence others that what we do is cool?

I think, if we can somehow influence others that being a humble servant is cool, we will not need to worry there are not enough people serving in the church... If extend the concept abit, by influencing and convincing people that attending to a church is actually a cool act, i think people will be attracted to attend to church to see what it is really all about...

No wonder Jesus wants us to be the light and salt of the earth, to shine, to influence... But how many actually manage to do so??

Anyway, it is just something in my heart right now...

Future of Society?

I am reading this book called "Logic of Life".. Initially felt a bit boring about it, but I gain some interest on it over the past few days...

Just now was reading the part of book that discussing about the development of city... Big cities tend to have higher pay job, but people stay in it also have to bear higher cost of living. This book explained that, based on some research, people still tend want to stay in big cities rather than small village (rural) amid of the higher cost of living, because big cities have the effect of "open knowledge". People can easier learn from one another and become smarter more easily, and this open up more potential opportunity to everyone who stay in it.

It then further predicts how the future development of the society will be like: given that high technology has increasingly push up the productivity of manufacturing of all the physical items that we need (that we are using), manufacture sector will need only lesser and lesser people to work in it. When the physical items (tangible items) that we need can be taken care by machines (robots?), we, the human being can and will focus our efforts to only provide services to one another in the future...

Up to this point, I am imagining that in the future, everyone will just full time serving one another, while our needs for tangible items will all be produced by machines alone.. (does that mean no need to work hard anymore since everything will be produced by machines??? Utopia scenario??)

Then the book...... (haven't read yet, so don't know what else more will the book talking about next..)

Being tempted to just do micro blogging using twitter..

Sometimes being able to come up with something (long enough) to blog is not that easy, especially it is about personal life, of which i don't think is that interesting beside the thought process part (yes, I do think that my thinking sometimes actually is quite interesting, hohoho)... But just abandoning my blog is also hard... I think i am being undecisive again... nevermind, at least I am still blogging.

Time flies since the day being 20 years old, and now I am 20+... SO FAST... Have not done much in life, really hope to do much more different things in life, so that on the day when I am nearer to the R.I.P time, and look back, and I can say : "hey, I have done this, done that... and i have not wasted my life journey on earth"

But stepping out from the comfort zone is a very challenging task.. it is challenged to take that first step, and not only that.. it is equally fearful to keep that stepped-out feet and move the 2nd steps and so on and so forth..

Today while walking on the street, suddenly remembered my granny.. felt missing her, but no longer able to see her around, during this life time...

安息吧，叔叔

2009年6月4日，中午 12:30pm ，我亲爱的叔叔 Thomas 离开了我们。

看着叔叔的照片出现在讣告上，我的心情是非常的复杂，这一件事好像并不是真的，却是真的。

瘫痪在病床上4年左右，他终于结束了在病床上的劳苦，回到了主耶稣的怀抱里，应该感到安慰，但是我们其实心中有着丝丝不舍。

蓦然回首，叔叔是我们全家得救的先锋，耶稣通过他，将福音传了给我们全家，包括我爷爷，奶奶...

回想以往我们一家大大小小一起出外旅游的往事，回想以往你总在我们的谈话当中高声呼叫 Halellujah... 以及后来当你瘫痪在病床上时只能使用眼珠与我们沟通的时候... 当你见到我时，
依旧眼望上方心中呼唤 “赞美主”...

最后，我想在这献上几首在你成为基督徒的人生路上所最喜爱的诗歌：

我是个快乐人

我是个快乐人要作快乐事
日日敬拜主喜乐溢洋洋
不断的歌唱用力地拍掌
天天敬拜主我要开心地赞美主
赞美主我要开心地赞美主
敬拜主我要尽心地敬拜主
多谢主我要开口多谢主
我谢我主多谢我主给我一个快乐心嘿
多谢我主多谢我主我是个快乐人你是个快乐人

Happyman.mp3 -

拉着你的手

拉着你的手，拉着你的手，
让我们一起跟着耶稣走，
不要看环境也不要看道路，
只有一个信念前进不退后。
乘风从南到北破浪从西到东
展开信心的翅膀传扬耶稣的名。
告别父母告别弟兄我要踏上福音的旅程，
纵然是苦昂首挺胸，风霜雪雨更加从容。
因为我已看见新耶路撒冷我的脚步更快更加坚定。



除你以外

除你以外、在天上我还能有谁
除你以外、在地上我别無眷恋
除你以外、有谁能擦干我眼泪
除你以外、有谁能带给我安慰

虽然我的肉体和我的心肠
渐渐地衰退
但是神是我心里的力量
是我的福份直到永远



叔叔，我会在心中想念你，你安息在主的怀抱中吧。

Burden in Mind and Heart

Tonight was searching lyrics for a song, accidentally come across some very interesting post and comments on the net regarding the church I am attending and the senior pastor who is guiding the lambs in it, there is one post left by brother Isaiah early of 2009 particularly draw my attention..

He specifically pin pointing a sermon preached by Pastor Kong Hee in that service teaching about goal-setting, and conclude that Pastor Kong's sermon is non-biblical..

While reading through his comment, my heart and mind is very burdened... Because I am confused if I am hearing the something that is true in City Harvest Church, if what this brother Isaiah saying is valid, then am I wasting my time in the CHC?

However, after searching through my understanding on some verses in the bible, I have a few words to say.. here in my blog off course to re-strengthen my understanding on the faith on God...

A few paragraphs from this brother's comment have been extra interesting:

This brother said :"First off, our Christian walk is not a self-improvement course in how to better set goals and realize our best in finances, marriage, relationships, etc.! Our Christian walk is about our relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ, and working with ‘fear and trembling’ towards our salvation"

It is natural for anyone to understand that our christian walk is about our relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ, yet it does not mean we can drop off other things from our hands. There are verses mentioning about bearing fruits , serving one another, love one another among the brethen (I just cannot figure out and imagine if our relationships is not good, is there love in place?), and even before Christ rise up to heaven, He has given us the Great Commission to follow... So our Christian walk with God is really more than just a surface thought of relationship with our Lord, it is something dynamic, as relationship building is a dynamic process involving our heart..

Moreover, I think finances, marriage and relationships and etc are all mentioned in the bible.. Finances -> God teaches about tithing in book of Malachi etc. Marriage -> New Testament got a few places teaches about marriage relationship, relationships as mentioned above. It is not about whether we should pursue goal in these area or not, it is more towards what is our true intention behind... Pastor Kong teaches the church that we should follow what Jesus said to be the salt and light of the world.. If we are not doing good in these area, how to be salt and light??

Another series of paragraph by this brother:"

Secondly, Kong Hee took passages from Bible versions as and when they fitted into the message he was trying to bring across. For example, if the New Living Translation (NLT) had the word ‘goal’ in one verse, he’d take the interpretation of Scripture in that version and underline that word.

Below is my point-for-point rebuttal of the sermon:

Taking Verses Out of Context

Kong Hee reads from the King James Version (KJV) of the Bible, citing Luke 11:34 and only mentioning the first part of the verse where it says “The light of the body is the eye: therefore when thine eye is single, thy whole body also is full of light;”

It’s not surprising that he only mentioned the first part of the verse, because next up is veering the topic towards how the fact that “thine eye is single” equates to focus and therefore leads to goal-setting.

The entire verse in Luke 11:34 (KJV) actually states this:

The light of the body is the eye: therefore when thine eye is single, thy whole body also is full of light; but when thine eye is evil, thy body also is full of darkness.

Luke 11:34 (KJV)

Now, you tell me: even someone with some rudimentary knowledge of English will tell you that reading the entire verse does not give one the impression that it has anything to do with focus and goal-setting. One can easily infer from the word ‘evil’ in the opposite lesson the word ’single’ would mean something similar in meaning to ‘good’, no?

In fact, the English Standard Version translates that verse thus:

Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eye is healthy, your whole body is full of light, but when it is bad, your body is full of darkness.

Luke 11:34

There is nothing in that verse that speaks of focus and goal-setting!"

I found this comment is very interesting so I took out my KJV Concordance and refer to it to find the original Hebrews / Greek words about this term, and found out that this term is actually called Haplous in the Greek, which means "folded together, i.e. Single" (or clear), it really does not mean good in the original text... and based on the context of the verse, my understanding is more towards the meaning of focus (on God), or taking on single-direction (one-direction) view or something like that... And my understanding from what Pastor Kong teaching is that what we focus will gain in strength and what we lose focus will be weakened...

This brother mentioned: "

Calling to Unbelievers

How does a sermon that has served nothing but to teach a non-Biblical lesson touch any non-believers in the midst of that many-thousand-strong congregation?

I was surprised that a call to the unbelievers was even made! Look, if I were an unbeliever, I wouldn’t have gone forward to be led to become a Christian unless I’d said “hey, I’d like some of that riches that your God gives!”.

What kind of Christians will they be?

Where’s the preaching of sin in the first place? I don’t believe anyone can become a true Christian and disciple of Christ unless there is conviction in their hearts that they are sinners and are repentant and know that only the Lord Jesus Christ is able to forgive them and make them acceptable before God!

Can someone be moved to know that he or she needs Christ because the pastor taught a lesson in setting goals? If so, we should be seeing more conversions at Anthony Robbins seminars than in churches!

I worry for the souls of those who went forward. I really do. Because like the parable that our Lord Jesus Christ taught, these will be those who shall be building their houses on shifting sand, and a great fall they shall have when the winds blow and the rains beat down!

"

I trust that he is indeed very worry about us who is attending city harvest, and I appreciate for this concern, however, his concern regarding a calling after types of sermon, I realized that Paul has the teaching found in 1 Cor 9:19 - 23... Paul does not limit himself to one type of teaching and/or one way of out-reaching... Even when Jesus first approached and called for Simon Peter, He is not sharing a teaching of sin that this brother is expecting, but the truth is Peter followed Jesus after that encounter with the Lord, and though he denies Jesus 3 times, God changed him from Simon to Peter... and I believe that this brother may not have understood or accidentally overlook that there are a few other factors... i.e.

1. during the time before the unbelievers attended the service, there may have been some sharing of the gospel message..
2. the respond to the altar does not just stop there, there is still further effort put in to continue disciple and share about the teaching of God after that..
3. God's involvement.. we never know what God has done and will be doing in those people who responded to the altar call..

Among the few last statement made by this brother: The prosperity gospel is a false gospel that will lead you astray! It teaches nothing but worldly principles and treating God as some vending machine. And all you’re in fact doing when you give to the church (or sow, as they call it), is buying some lottery ticket that says “God shall bless me when I give more to the building fund”

I am not sure the rest, but giving to God, to me, is one learning process to a lifestyle and attitudes to express love to God. I am still thinking that it is the ultimate intention in heart that why we are doing so matters, of which the prosperity and blessing comes-by as like a "by-product" to this giving, to be honest, I never traced anything like "how much God has returned me back through His vending machine slot, whether God has short-changed me or something like that" ...

I understand my intention, so the comment saying that treating God as some vending machine is something I totally cannot agree, and I find it a bit insulting also... And also, my personal thought is: if one giving to God and believe that God's blessing will pour down upon him is equated as buying lottery which depends on chance and luck, it is very sad, as I personally believe that God is a good Father as who He said He is, and will one's true loving father choose to stay silent when His beloved children expressing their loves to Him? As i understand that God is loving Father and expressive God that He kept on repeating and reminding us that He loves us.. and it is unbelieving that sacrificing to God is like buying lottery... Also I remember in the old testament how the children of Israel gives to the priest to want to build God a temple (His house)... It is in the bible...

I am not perfect either, which makes my counter-comment potentially mislook certain teachings in the bible.. If so, it is my personal fault.. However, one thing I learn is that: God's words are wonderful and we never will fully understand everything in His Word... I will still need to continue to learn the Way...

Long post from me