Today is an unhappy day for me, leaving behind doubts in my mind regarding myself... Don't want to mention it here
I wonder if there is any other people used to live in a dream-mindset before. I don't know how to describe it exactly, it is like the whole mind is in a state of dreaming, and things around no longer real, and the mind keep on wanting to just stay in the state of dreaming... I have been very long never in such a state, it is a mind condition that I realized I am extremely irrational and may do things without considering the consequences.. So I keep on telling myself, it is already 1pm in the afternoon, time to wake up!!
Recently life has not been too good, though I am keeping to stay joyful and laugh as much as I can. Remembering younger days, when I am not in a good mood, my face will totally tell. There was people use to tell me that my face is so stern until look like want to kill people. Now off course I am much better in wearing a layer of mask onto my face. The surface appeared to be smiling, laughing and happy, though the underlying heart maybe sad.
Frustrated, wish to be able to progress in things that I am doing faster... God, I need a miracle (and if possible, miracleSSSSS) !!!
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