Sunday, August 31, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Today very surprised to receive a phone call from oversea, my hometown.. called by an old secondary good friend. The feeling of receiving old friend's call out of surprise is so good. As time passed by, people tends to forget the old classmates, old buddies, old friends, old colleagues in life, as human's memory normally are not that lasting. We chatted for a while, exchanged for some latest news in life. This phone call brighten my day...
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Anyway, though I am not citizen of China, but I would also like to express my personal encouragement to Liu Xiang, the track and field athlete of China who injured and forced to bail out from the 2008 Olympics Games.
I am thinking: Olympics represents the highest level of events for many sports and getting gold in it meant a lot to athletes. If it becomes a life meaning to Liu Xiang to achieve his best in this competition, then how much this incident will impact him is not hard to imagine. Suddenly a long waited dream is broken, and 4 years of hard training and efforts becomes like useless and meaningless... It is a very sad thing to the athlete himself... Anyway, wish him be able to stand up again as meaning of life is still not lost, and he still has chance. Important thing is not to give up or let this incident become a bad influence to achieve the next target in life...
加油, 刘翔!
Haha, suddenly feel like writing all this to the air, as I don't know this athlete.. But anyway, is a sharing and encouragement to my friends who encounter similar type of event in life too...
加油, 朋友们!
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Anyway, though I am not citizen of China, but I would also like to express my personal encouragement to Liu Xiang, the track and field athlete of China who injured and forced to bail out from the 2008 Olympics Games.
I am thinking: Olympics represents the highest level of events for many sports and getting gold in it meant a lot to athletes. If it becomes a life meaning to Liu Xiang to achieve his best in this competition, then how much this incident will impact him is not hard to imagine. Suddenly a long waited dream is broken, and 4 years of hard training and efforts becomes like useless and meaningless... It is a very sad thing to the athlete himself... Anyway, wish him be able to stand up again as meaning of life is still not lost, and he still has chance. Important thing is not to give up or let this incident become a bad influence to achieve the next target in life...
加油, 刘翔!
Haha, suddenly feel like writing all this to the air, as I don't know this athlete.. But anyway, is a sharing and encouragement to my friends who encounter similar type of event in life too...
加油, 朋友们!
Monday, August 18, 2008
I think, I write (which refering to "Unspecific Title" in Chinese)
Nowadays how to make life not a rotten one has become a questionaire to me day after day... I am very lazy kind of person, though on the surface people tend to think I am hardworking... Hm.. lazy in the sense that depend on my mood of the day, but since my mood always not very good and feel tired easily, I always fall back to the lazy zone...
Sometimes when having too many things that want to achieve can be quite a distracting challenge, especially if each of these things actually are quite big scale and not going to be easy... Recently some ideas flush into my mind, believe it or not, I noticed that the period when I am leaning closer to God is the period when very fresh and new ideas flooded in, and then when I cold down the stream of ideas seems stagnant.
Anyway, Singapore and M'sia this pair of neighbours are both getting its first silver medal in this olympics, one in table-tennis losing to China, and the latter in Badminton also losing to China. China seems so outstanding in this olympics games and some are predicting that it will be the No1 in the medal chart this time. While some may say that it is due to the good training, hosting country etc as the main reason why so.. I am thinking otherwise. Given a country with 1.2 billion population, they have more people to choose among, and since that, environment becomes very competitve and competition under the healthy way and environment produces results... Imagine that 10 people compete for 1 candidacy and 1000000000 people compete for 1 candidacy, which will tend to let the organizer finding the better performing person? And on the opposite site, given 10 people are compete for 1 chance and 10000000000 people competing for 1 chance, people from which scenario will tend to be more concern whether they can get it and hence put in more effort???
I heard someone mentioned that 21st century is the people's century. Whoever contain the most resources in this area will win the race. To some extend it is true. But there are also other conditions that need to co-exists in order to bring out the positive effect of such a resource. Think about many of the african countries that are still struggling with poverty then should understand what I am refering to now...
Sometimes when having too many things that want to achieve can be quite a distracting challenge, especially if each of these things actually are quite big scale and not going to be easy... Recently some ideas flush into my mind, believe it or not, I noticed that the period when I am leaning closer to God is the period when very fresh and new ideas flooded in, and then when I cold down the stream of ideas seems stagnant.
Anyway, Singapore and M'sia this pair of neighbours are both getting its first silver medal in this olympics, one in table-tennis losing to China, and the latter in Badminton also losing to China. China seems so outstanding in this olympics games and some are predicting that it will be the No1 in the medal chart this time. While some may say that it is due to the good training, hosting country etc as the main reason why so.. I am thinking otherwise. Given a country with 1.2 billion population, they have more people to choose among, and since that, environment becomes very competitve and competition under the healthy way and environment produces results... Imagine that 10 people compete for 1 candidacy and 1000000000 people compete for 1 candidacy, which will tend to let the organizer finding the better performing person? And on the opposite site, given 10 people are compete for 1 chance and 10000000000 people competing for 1 chance, people from which scenario will tend to be more concern whether they can get it and hence put in more effort???
I heard someone mentioned that 21st century is the people's century. Whoever contain the most resources in this area will win the race. To some extend it is true. But there are also other conditions that need to co-exists in order to bring out the positive effect of such a resource. Think about many of the african countries that are still struggling with poverty then should understand what I am refering to now...
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
My character...
These few days don't have inspiration to blog much stuff...
Anyway, sometimes when people has lost its momentum on something, some people refered it as "fire" , it is sometimes very hard to gain it back... But thank God, I believe I am gaining back the 'fire' day by day on things that I have lost momentum to previously...
Finally have had a chance to meet Jordan again.. It has been so long until I've forgotten how he is like. But basically he does not change much, still very steady person, easily gain trust type of personality. By the way, I tend to get closer to this type of people more, maybe because they give me impression that they are trustworthy friends ba.. then off course trustworthy friends are nice to have and never have enough, however, also need to be careful to think that everyone is a trustworthy friends...
I was a very clear boundary person since young, in the past, my world only have black and white. Right means right, wrong is wrong... And I am quite direct person to pinpoint the black items, without mercy (as I was monitor of class, prefect of schools). To me, truth and justice are top priority. I would not hesitate to sacrifice the friendship if I need to maintain 'justice'.. wow... and because I was very direct to do it, and thought that punishment is the only way to stop all these black stuff and so always taking such an approach or taking actions lead to such an outcome to others people in the 'black' region, so off course end result is I am not a very welcome person to most people.
This character does not change much up to the uni days, or even up to 3 months ago. But very amazing things happen to me in the past 1~2 months...
My mindset suddenly start to change. I start to understand the importance of human interaction skill. I start to think that it is a must-have skill in life. I suddenly start having the interest to work with all sort of people. My believe shifted from "It is worthy to work with this people, it is not worthy to work that that person" to now "it is worthy to work with different people with different ways"... Does not mean I agree with the ways of some people doing things, but at least I am no longer want to deal with them using the harsh way or hard way, of which I was doing in the past, even few months back I still behave the harsh way to some people.
All this change just take place, comes by suddenly. Thank God to place me in this workplace, this is definately a training ground for human-human interaction. But more, I thank God to place a mindset of change into me to live towards to the new mindset of which to want to work with different people, even with those that I may not agree their ways of handling stuff...
Hm.. is this called maturing???? Should I celebrate???
Anyway, sometimes when people has lost its momentum on something, some people refered it as "fire" , it is sometimes very hard to gain it back... But thank God, I believe I am gaining back the 'fire' day by day on things that I have lost momentum to previously...
Finally have had a chance to meet Jordan again.. It has been so long until I've forgotten how he is like. But basically he does not change much, still very steady person, easily gain trust type of personality. By the way, I tend to get closer to this type of people more, maybe because they give me impression that they are trustworthy friends ba.. then off course trustworthy friends are nice to have and never have enough, however, also need to be careful to think that everyone is a trustworthy friends...
I was a very clear boundary person since young, in the past, my world only have black and white. Right means right, wrong is wrong... And I am quite direct person to pinpoint the black items, without mercy (as I was monitor of class, prefect of schools). To me, truth and justice are top priority. I would not hesitate to sacrifice the friendship if I need to maintain 'justice'.. wow... and because I was very direct to do it, and thought that punishment is the only way to stop all these black stuff and so always taking such an approach or taking actions lead to such an outcome to others people in the 'black' region, so off course end result is I am not a very welcome person to most people.
This character does not change much up to the uni days, or even up to 3 months ago. But very amazing things happen to me in the past 1~2 months...
My mindset suddenly start to change. I start to understand the importance of human interaction skill. I start to think that it is a must-have skill in life. I suddenly start having the interest to work with all sort of people. My believe shifted from "It is worthy to work with this people, it is not worthy to work that that person" to now "it is worthy to work with different people with different ways"... Does not mean I agree with the ways of some people doing things, but at least I am no longer want to deal with them using the harsh way or hard way, of which I was doing in the past, even few months back I still behave the harsh way to some people.
All this change just take place, comes by suddenly. Thank God to place me in this workplace, this is definately a training ground for human-human interaction. But more, I thank God to place a mindset of change into me to live towards to the new mindset of which to want to work with different people, even with those that I may not agree their ways of handling stuff...
Hm.. is this called maturing???? Should I celebrate???
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Happy birthday, Singapore, leads to, "A Thought of my Own Country"
Today while attending the service, we were flaging the flag of Singapore and sang the song "Stand up, Singapore" together as to celebrate the national day of singapore. While it is nice to see all the red colours waving around in the auditorium, the ironic thing is in my so many years of my days that I aware of, I've never wave the flag of my own country like this before...
Off course, I am still Malaysian though some of my friends always tease me saying that I've become Singaporean. But Singapore is a very special country to me and somehow I have a unique linkage with this island state.
First of all, my mother is a Singaporean, and all my uncles, aunties, maternal grandparents are all from Singapore. Hence from my younger days, I already visited this beautiful country quite often. Maybe at least once every 1~2 years, and so places like Sentosa, Tampines, Changi Airport, Bedok Food Hawker Centre, Chinese Garden, City Hall Station and things like MRT, 'Gao Shiao Xing Dong' by Jack Neo, Channel 8 etc etc are not unfamiliar to me.
2ndly, it is the uni here that recognizes the cert that I am holding and offer me an opportunity to study here. This is a very very sad point to mention, my own country is not even recognizing this certificate, but yet Singapore's uni are offering a few hundreds of places to students holding this cert in my country every year...
My country ah, it is time not to confine yourself within the racial boundary, but to focus on building a nationality identity, only then we will grow healthier as one in this glabalization trend.
Why are we still debating over the pie share or quota while the real challenge should be increasing the pie size together?
Politicians, it is time stop playing around with foolish words that only meant to expose the lack of wisdom of oneself. Nobody has the right to create chaos through his/her foolish act in this beautiful country, as this is not your own personal platform, this is a country belong to all people in Malaysia. Focus on the right things, take care of your people, who have entrusted you to govern the country through their votes...
Too many things to say, too few words to express, lest it become an action to touch on the "sensitive issue"...
Anyway, while Singapore is 43 this year, my country should be celebrating its 51 years old this month. Happy birthday to my own country!
Off course, I am still Malaysian though some of my friends always tease me saying that I've become Singaporean. But Singapore is a very special country to me and somehow I have a unique linkage with this island state.
First of all, my mother is a Singaporean, and all my uncles, aunties, maternal grandparents are all from Singapore. Hence from my younger days, I already visited this beautiful country quite often. Maybe at least once every 1~2 years, and so places like Sentosa, Tampines, Changi Airport, Bedok Food Hawker Centre, Chinese Garden, City Hall Station and things like MRT, 'Gao Shiao Xing Dong' by Jack Neo, Channel 8 etc etc are not unfamiliar to me.
2ndly, it is the uni here that recognizes the cert that I am holding and offer me an opportunity to study here. This is a very very sad point to mention, my own country is not even recognizing this certificate, but yet Singapore's uni are offering a few hundreds of places to students holding this cert in my country every year...
My country ah, it is time not to confine yourself within the racial boundary, but to focus on building a nationality identity, only then we will grow healthier as one in this glabalization trend.
Why are we still debating over the pie share or quota while the real challenge should be increasing the pie size together?
Politicians, it is time stop playing around with foolish words that only meant to expose the lack of wisdom of oneself. Nobody has the right to create chaos through his/her foolish act in this beautiful country, as this is not your own personal platform, this is a country belong to all people in Malaysia. Focus on the right things, take care of your people, who have entrusted you to govern the country through their votes...
Too many things to say, too few words to express, lest it become an action to touch on the "sensitive issue"...
Anyway, while Singapore is 43 this year, my country should be celebrating its 51 years old this month. Happy birthday to my own country!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Office Moving...
This week my office is moved from one floor to another, from bigger to smaller room, from lower density to higher density seating arrangement, from dimmer to brighter place, because my company is expanding its operation.
Because too many people are impacted, this move is done in batches of stuff, of which we are the first batch. To wait for the area to be setup, on Monday basically we did nothing and just stand aside, watching at the people to setup the place. We are so bored that we are taking out our camera phone and capcha capcha here and there. I were regret not bringing monopoly set to go and play to spend the time there (what will my boss think about me if he happen to read this post...)
Anyway, since it is a photo-taking day, I decided to take the chance to take some photos with my friends too...
Took photo with Jeff, you see him so relax sitting on the sofa...
Taken with my great buddy in the workplace, Kar Wei
Seeing us taking photo so shiok, Yew Hun also want to join in
Because too many people are impacted, this move is done in batches of stuff, of which we are the first batch. To wait for the area to be setup, on Monday basically we did nothing and just stand aside, watching at the people to setup the place. We are so bored that we are taking out our camera phone and capcha capcha here and there. I were regret not bringing monopoly set to go and play to spend the time there (what will my boss think about me if he happen to read this post...)
Anyway, since it is a photo-taking day, I decided to take the chance to take some photos with my friends too...
Took photo with Jeff, you see him so relax sitting on the sofa...
Taken with my great buddy in the workplace, Kar Wei
Seeing us taking photo so shiok, Yew Hun also want to join in
Mentioning about Yew Hun, he is from Penang. One thing very strange to me, I have quite a positive impression on people I know from Penang so far. Not sure if it is co-incident, I found the few friends I know who are from Penang are quite soft and gentle person, of whom leave me a positive impression on them... Off course, maybe I was influenced by the closer friend of my uni days, Jordan, who is also from Penang.
How come my buddy is in the same workplace as me? It is a friendship built in the workplace, not sure exactly how this friendship is being built up, just remembered that there were a period of time I always complain to him regarding the people, unfairness, frustration in the workplace. But Kar Wei is quite a Mr nice guy. He is so nice that many people thought he has no temper. I believe not many people have a chance to see the moment that he actually frustrated over things in the workplace, though I did encounter once or twice before. He gives people an impression of a very trustworthy, responsible kind of impression. Just today, while he was away for the sentosa workshop, his boss actually panic over lacking of some important data that need to submit to the top management, he came back to the office purposefully after office hour just to get back the data. I am thinking, he actually is a very stable person who handle things very thoroughly. He is the few who can really make people feel secured to entrust him important tasks. It is like if he is around for the things, no need to panic liao... Compared to some others, sigh.. don't want to mention how some others handle things lar...
Looking at my face, the shape, the size... sigh... I really really really really really need to lose away some weights, though I am still smiling in the photos..... I will be more and more afraid taking more photos in the future if the growth of my shape is still maintained in the same speed in the near future, not only it hold up more resources of the earth in my body, worse is it is not nice to have this shape... sigh~~
How come my buddy is in the same workplace as me? It is a friendship built in the workplace, not sure exactly how this friendship is being built up, just remembered that there were a period of time I always complain to him regarding the people, unfairness, frustration in the workplace. But Kar Wei is quite a Mr nice guy. He is so nice that many people thought he has no temper. I believe not many people have a chance to see the moment that he actually frustrated over things in the workplace, though I did encounter once or twice before. He gives people an impression of a very trustworthy, responsible kind of impression. Just today, while he was away for the sentosa workshop, his boss actually panic over lacking of some important data that need to submit to the top management, he came back to the office purposefully after office hour just to get back the data. I am thinking, he actually is a very stable person who handle things very thoroughly. He is the few who can really make people feel secured to entrust him important tasks. It is like if he is around for the things, no need to panic liao... Compared to some others, sigh.. don't want to mention how some others handle things lar...
Looking at my face, the shape, the size... sigh... I really really really really really need to lose away some weights, though I am still smiling in the photos..... I will be more and more afraid taking more photos in the future if the growth of my shape is still maintained in the same speed in the near future, not only it hold up more resources of the earth in my body, worse is it is not nice to have this shape... sigh~~
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Peace... how important it is!!
Today have been waken up very late because was slept very late last night. Again, I would like to stress that I am a night cat kind of person, my boss commented on me that it may because I like the peace at night.. not sure how true about this comment...
Something happen totally spoilt my mood to the negative side for the day, because it injects in some very irritating thoughts and emotions into me, I felt very troubled, unhappy in my heart. But this is an incident happen in the radius that I felt I not able to separate myself away or I'll risk losing something very important in life, that may make me regret for a life time... I am very confused, and don't know how to handle.
Today I just felt like getting away from my house, far far away, just nice today will attend the Festival of Praise 2008, so with this kind of emotions and mind state, I have left my house and head to SIS for Festival of Praise today. Met Peng huat, Julius and Asher at Tiong Bahru before heading to SIS... ah, good thing all of them are friends that I'm closer to in the cell group, that I can chat and talk with 'joyfully', else I may have been very quiet today. But overall, also because of them around talking to me today, I feel better before heading to SIS.
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Sidetrack a bit, I want take this chance to thank the friend whom have met me at the west and travel together to Tiong Bahru today for fellowshipping with me along the way and distract me away for awhile from my unhappy thought. You know who you are. Anyway, term is starting real soon, "jia you" lor, hardworking man!!! You really impress me with your hardworking (at least the surface look like one), and even more, is the fact that you have taken a step to pursue a higher step in life after working in the commercial world for a while. Not everyone can, or will do so. I always have respect for these friends who do so. But, please, please don't be overly humble, aim for the first class honour, ok? Jia You Jia You! Gambade!
Hey, all my friends who study in NTU who happen to pass by, terms are starting in 28 hours later, Jia You to you all, and all the best for your term.
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I finally reached the legendary Festival of Praise 2008 at around 6pm. With the passionate in God's people, the Q is so long outside the stadium even before the door is open...
Overall, the event is great. The sermon preached by Rev Mark Connel is great... The song is great... but I lack of the peace in heart. My thought is switching very quickly from 1 thought to another, thinking from 1 thing to the other... I stayed in a state that is very difficult to focus. I felt like leaving the event right after the 1st or 2nd song. I don't feel like continue to stay in the event for long... But how can I left the event halfway like that? How can I let the emotions just take me away from church event again like this? I decided to stick on...
Amazingly time passed very quickly. The event has come to an end for tonight, but still things troubling me still remain as very troublesome. I have no solution, I have no direction. Peace of God is not in me tonight.. I meant peace of God is in me, that I still can stay calm, I am not screaming, yelling, thank God for that, but, I need that extra-ordinary abundance of the peace of God that poured upon me before few months back, the peace that is so great and overflowing that everything else is just so insignificant and miniature, knowing every problems and issues is just a peanut in the eyes of God, but this level of peace is not inside of me tonight...
It is very very consuming at times to continously just to believe in God with faith, without knowing how things will turn out, in a period of time of darkness. When the period grow longer, the consumption inside become harder and harder to take on... But I learnt this directly or indirectly from my Pastor (Tan), that having faith (is not merely for the sake of saying that we are having faith in God, but) is to believe that God's character is good ALL the time. I no longer ask myself "Can I continue to have faith in God?", the new question I ask now is "Can I continue to believe that God's character is good ALL the time?". The switch of the question to ask myself has helped me stay slightly stronger in my down time...
"Can I continue to believe that God's character is good ALL the time?" - Yes, I still believe it
Something happen totally spoilt my mood to the negative side for the day, because it injects in some very irritating thoughts and emotions into me, I felt very troubled, unhappy in my heart. But this is an incident happen in the radius that I felt I not able to separate myself away or I'll risk losing something very important in life, that may make me regret for a life time... I am very confused, and don't know how to handle.
Today I just felt like getting away from my house, far far away, just nice today will attend the Festival of Praise 2008, so with this kind of emotions and mind state, I have left my house and head to SIS for Festival of Praise today. Met Peng huat, Julius and Asher at Tiong Bahru before heading to SIS... ah, good thing all of them are friends that I'm closer to in the cell group, that I can chat and talk with 'joyfully', else I may have been very quiet today. But overall, also because of them around talking to me today, I feel better before heading to SIS.
...
Sidetrack a bit, I want take this chance to thank the friend whom have met me at the west and travel together to Tiong Bahru today for fellowshipping with me along the way and distract me away for awhile from my unhappy thought. You know who you are. Anyway, term is starting real soon, "jia you" lor, hardworking man!!! You really impress me with your hardworking (at least the surface look like one), and even more, is the fact that you have taken a step to pursue a higher step in life after working in the commercial world for a while. Not everyone can, or will do so. I always have respect for these friends who do so. But, please, please don't be overly humble, aim for the first class honour, ok? Jia You Jia You! Gambade!
Hey, all my friends who study in NTU who happen to pass by, terms are starting in 28 hours later, Jia You to you all, and all the best for your term.
...
I finally reached the legendary Festival of Praise 2008 at around 6pm. With the passionate in God's people, the Q is so long outside the stadium even before the door is open...
Overall, the event is great. The sermon preached by Rev Mark Connel is great... The song is great... but I lack of the peace in heart. My thought is switching very quickly from 1 thought to another, thinking from 1 thing to the other... I stayed in a state that is very difficult to focus. I felt like leaving the event right after the 1st or 2nd song. I don't feel like continue to stay in the event for long... But how can I left the event halfway like that? How can I let the emotions just take me away from church event again like this? I decided to stick on...
Amazingly time passed very quickly. The event has come to an end for tonight, but still things troubling me still remain as very troublesome. I have no solution, I have no direction. Peace of God is not in me tonight.. I meant peace of God is in me, that I still can stay calm, I am not screaming, yelling, thank God for that, but, I need that extra-ordinary abundance of the peace of God that poured upon me before few months back, the peace that is so great and overflowing that everything else is just so insignificant and miniature, knowing every problems and issues is just a peanut in the eyes of God, but this level of peace is not inside of me tonight...
It is very very consuming at times to continously just to believe in God with faith, without knowing how things will turn out, in a period of time of darkness. When the period grow longer, the consumption inside become harder and harder to take on... But I learnt this directly or indirectly from my Pastor (Tan), that having faith (is not merely for the sake of saying that we are having faith in God, but) is to believe that God's character is good ALL the time. I no longer ask myself "Can I continue to have faith in God?", the new question I ask now is "Can I continue to believe that God's character is good ALL the time?". The switch of the question to ask myself has helped me stay slightly stronger in my down time...
"Can I continue to believe that God's character is good ALL the time?" - Yes, I still believe it
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