Trip??

Recently got a plan to go for a trip to HK with some of my friends. The initial planned date is somewhere in July. However, due to some changes to the schedule of my friend(s), he and his friend will bring it forward to May, and the trip appear to be a rush one, so i now call it off from my plan already.

Hm.. think really need a battery-charging-with-no-work-or-projects-or-business-idea-in-mind trip, life is dull, and intend to colouring it with out-of-town trip... but not malaysia... somewhere further... though not Thai, Vietnam, Philipines, Laos, Mainland China, Myanmar, Indonesia.... Haha.. I am quite picky when coming into trip destination selections..

Unpeace

I've a lot of things that i intend to do, but i am progressing very slowly overally. Very uncalm tonight, felt very rushed in heart want to achieve something, but can't...

I find it more and more meaningless for me in my current job, losing my passion and vision for it, does it mean that it is time for me to change my job??????

Seriously not known what to do next... relax and enjoy myself to bring myself back into peaceful state of mind i think is the first step to do...

These few days under great stress of work, many deadlines to rush, but many things to tie me down also...

Very moody, very tired...

Where to go next?

Backpack

I am thinking, if life is a journey, then it must be a trip of anyone are trying to go from point A to point B. One can choose to go through jungle to have a jungle walk and going through the scenary of trees with animals, while another one chooses to climb over the mountain will see things like snow, birds, mist, and maybe a sunrise. Some others may just want a normal walk, following pathways that already built. Along the way, we may see other, by passing them or walk together until to a place where eash other are heading towards different direction...

It seems everyone will bring along something with him/her, just like a jungle walker, or a mountain climber will bring along a backpack with important stuff inside... But i am just thinking, if we really sit down and open up this backpack of ourselves, what will we see inside?

Some actually bring along a sad and torturing memory inside his/her backpack, some put in his/her own broken heart, some place in the burdens of life... When all these are filling up the backpack, no wonder along the way, so many are so tired and cannot continue on the journey, because the backpack s/he is carrying is so heavy, didn't realize that many of those are actually not the necessities of the journey... Why bring along a heavy flipper with you when you are climbing up a mountain and don't need a flipper?

I don't know... very often the flipper looks like a mountain stick to me... and thought that i will need it on my journey up the mountain, yes, to the person who is carrying it himself/herself, it is not known...

My shoulder is heavy, life is burden, I fall but no one pick me up, i screamed but no one hear me, I call but no one answer me, I was wounded but no one cares...