A new challenge has just joined the queue...

When life is overwhelmed with challenges, what is the response of the majority?

I don't understand the purpose of these challenges or pull back factors in my life, is it that those exist really in order to prepare me for a great future and cultivate a highly successful life style? Or it exist because unfortunately I am the random few who really need to go through these? Is there really a green pasture after this tunnel? You promises yes!

I am squeezed, I felt tight from 4 sides.

I am confused, I felt undecisive at 100 junctions.

I need a thorough breakthrough in life, but it is really impossible without You because of all the pull back factors, and also I felt weak, I really really need Your strength, do You know it? Yes, i believe You know it!

Thank You!!

Half Volunteer

Today went to china town to be a half-volunteer together with some from the cell group..

We went to help clean up on those old people's home, because a lot of them are inconvenient to do the cleaning... But i said I only be half-volunteer because my main role there turned up to be a translator for my group to the house owner who only know speaking cantonese... I felt bit uneasy seeing myself not really doing the physical but only chat with the old people staying in the house while others are helping out in doing the real cleaning...

Today is quite a fruitful day, not only I am reinforced the truth that building up the synergy through working together towards the same goal is very effective (in fact I think is the only effective way as well), but more importantly, giving and seeing others happy from the giving is very happy to oneself...

I hope today becomes a turning point that I love my whole cell group more, and mingle around with them more, support them more, playing with them more, chatting with them more, moving with them more, joking with them more...... (In fact, my heart is very moved today)

Anyway, I also found out the main reason that why I sometimes seldom talk to people when being in a large group, staying silently while other times I could talk so much... ...

A Recognition

Last month, get a news that I am promoted to be senior engineer in my workplace... My boss fought the promotion for me among the engineers around and succeeded, with lots of sweat and tons of words to justify my promotion.

To me, this is a recognition from my manager on my contributions and work done, though I personally felt that I don't really deserve it..

In a way, it is something that worth celebrations, I guessed... but i felt this promotion a bit quiet, not that I intend to roar it out until everybody know it, only that I don't know whether I actually got the excitement in me for it, I initially intend to treat a few friends personally a meal, to share across my happiness, it turns out that, got nobody I especially eagerly wanted to share this news with...

Anyway, I felt it's weird whenever thinking that I am a senior engineer now in my workplace...

But anyway, not keeping this news, at least share it on my blog, to express my appreciation and gratitude to my God, and I deeply believe that, it is the work of His hands that I progress this far in my workplace, because I personally just am not having much great things to talk about in my work as compared to many others. Hallelujah

I also always being thankful to God that I am having a great manager like Meng who cares and fights for those that report to him, especially when hearing many others complain about the ignorance of their bosses. It is the partial reason why I still stick onto the job until this point of time.

Thank God, thank Meng, thank my now and ex-team members Lemuel, Joo Soon, Azmin, Gerardo and Nur.